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Saturday, January 14, 2012

Way to Love.


Love me. 
Hold me like you'll hold your heart when it jumps out. 
Hold me tight, hold me warm, hold me close. 
Hold me. Now, tomorrow, for ever.

Touch me, like you'll touch a glowing spark. 
Wonder, bewilder. 
Believe that this, the thing we have, is and will remain.

Feel. 
Feel my breath, a tinge of coffee and lots of you. 
Feel it linger around you and ultimately engulf you with 
such passion that there isnt time to breathe.

Listen. 
Listen to my heart's beat. 
Listen to it so closely that you know how i heave. 
Count the droplets of sweat beading.
 And while you do that all of that, listen.

Look at me. 
Look into me. Look with me at what i want to see. 
Look into my eyes, search for reason. 
Look at the lines that go across my hands. 
Take my hand in yours. 
Crush me.

And then, love me all over again.

'And then...'


Monday, December 26, 2011

Alone/ Lonely



Under the infinite sky, she couldn’t see the azure glow.
She sat, curled up amongst thousand people of this world.
Hugging her knees, she kissed herself.
She felt her lips- cold, wanting, untouched.
She felt her tears- warm, uncontrolled, continuous.
Alone, this world was making her weak.
Lonely, she was, she will be.

Beside the unending waters, she couldn’t count the waves.
She lay down, like a womb, but without its mother.
She touched her finger sans the ring, a shade lighter.
He left her too, they left her to be.
She felt her self- quivering, shallow, and numb.
She felt her tears- determined, untrained, forever.
She walked on, alone, her hand outstretched.
In hope, for someone, who would hold her again.

The canopy of trees couldn’t shadow her melancholy.
The piercing sunlight was distant, far away.
She got up and fell down, not a soul stirred.
She walked off, she tried to stay, and not a thing mattered.
Her life was an obligation- a gift from the Supreme.
A gift, a curse? A gross understatement.
She yearned for a foe to spitefully hurt her.
For then she would know, that she was alive.

That fateful evening, when the clock struck one.
She was left dangling, between life and death.
Gasping she looked around, for light, for life.
But she had done what she had, she couldn’t take it back.
She missed her mark, the balance disturbed.
She shot him instead and her world, crashed.
It wasn’t her fault, she tried to reason.
But the world is miserable, the world is blind.

Not one soul saw the man behind him.
The one she aimed at, the one that should have been him.
Chastised, she trudged, thorns stinging her every move.
She left everyone as everyone left her- alone.
The world spun, and nothing stopped.
She was but a speck in the history of time.
Her life was just one more story, another bygone.
She was just one more person, lonely and alone.


Sunday, December 4, 2011

Wings of Fire

When the world looks down
Upon you and questions
Every step you take
And you feel alone in a dark, lonely room

Know, that you are who YOU are
And that the wings of fire don’t burn
They ignite with a flurry
…to light your way.

When the one you loved
Turns against you
With a thorned rose and
A thousand piercing bullets

Remember, that you must
Part as lovers, not as strangers
In a crowded room
…to be apart, forever and never.

When the foes outnumber the
Ones you trust and you
Stand tall while you
Fall, in front of a million

Keep in mind, that you
Lost to a Brute and your life just began
When your entire legacy rose
…to be a Caesar.

Don’t look back, don’t back down
Look ahead, look afar
Never doubt, never hesitate
Just believe.

And one day, the stars
Will lean down to kiss you
They will lead you to your glory
…to your true destiny
'The wings of fire don't burn'


Sunday, November 20, 2011

L'amour Douloureux

She was used to the piercing, shearing, burning pain she always felt when he was not around. He was never around.


She could not let him go because she did not know where she would be without him. Everytime he refused her, she felt the warm and ironically, comforting flow of her tears. Everytime she wanted to be there for him, she was shunned by a cold, penetrating gaze that sent her fleeing, fleeing towards him. She ran towards her pain and misfortune.

He was her love. He, was her suffering. She had taken upon herself a lifetime of this bitterness. She did not know what life was without him. She could not live a life with him. He did not let her go. But he did not let her in. Life was playing nasty tricks with her.

Life, was him.

She was lost, she was dazed and she was caught off guard by his indifference. She fell in love with his nonchalence. She could not pull herself out of the quicksand. He pushed her further in and she allowed him to pull her, towards him and away from joy. He was a dark soul. He was her God. She gave him her time and he gave her a lifetime of disapproval.

And yet, she couldn't leave him. For she knew, she wouldn't be able to live a single breath without him. And he knew this too. For she knew, she would not be complete without his half. And she knew, living with him was better than living painlessly.

Is this love or is this madness? She knew she would die one day, because of him or for him. Either way, she was dying. And she wanted to be around him when he finally set her free.

She felt Powerless. Empty. Eluded. Eclipsed. He was the light and she was only the shadow. She was the object and he was her desire. Every stinging tear that she had wept and every bleeding moment of misery she would live was nothing compared to the Love she felt in her beating heart- when he looked at her. She knew that this would all come to pass because she loved him and he loved her. And this divinity was difficult to find, let alone live with. Every sob, every pin-prick, every howl...justified, by love.

Every sentiment, overshadowed. Every joy, overcast. Only love, remained.

"Ever thine. Ever mine. Ever Ours"


Sunday, May 15, 2011

You.

Life sans you is like the moon in the day,

Rain sans coffee.

It's like the sky sans stars, music without soul.

It's just about passable,

And I need you more.


Life minus you is like a smile with tears,

Like meaning without reason,

It's like a day without memories.

It's just about passable, so I need you more.


Life loses itself in its arms;

When I am not in yours.

It loses its reflection.

So i need you a bit more,

Just a little bit more...